The last night, I went to a modern dance show named In spite of Wishing and Wanting created by Wim Vandekeybus. The artwork wonders the male identity quest in our society, with violence and passion…
Alice, Amy, Lizzy are the names I answer in. Not any last name, long ago I denied it. Same for birth gender, name and pronouns, I am a transgender person.
Out of the standards, naturally lone and alone. Free electron sailing from atom to atom. Unstable composition, constant evolution. My fluid being breaks the settled rules.
Smart-unconfident, ambitious-pessimistic, museless-creative, orphan in family, messy-methodical, extroardinarily regular, paradoxically consistent.
This is how I introduce myself. As you maybe noticed, I like to write. But I’m also passionate by cinema, I would even like, one day, being a professional. I love music too, and all kinds. I even played music. Guitar, drums, ocarina, piano and singing. Yea, I’m very creative.
I’d even say I am my creativity, without it I’m nothing. And this is also why I’ve got a Steemit account, and this also why I created this blog: to recover my creativity, to share it to you, to make it rise.
Do I suggest I lost it ? It’s a bit more complex…
A few times ago, I lived a difficult episod of my life, like many others, that made me think. I abandoned schoolar routine that killed me day by day since the beginning. Then, I had time for everything, but the energy for nothing. My pathology stole me that from my hands. And this is this one which stole me, bit by bit, day by day, all along these last years, my creativity.
But today, I have the determination, I wanna recover it. I wanna retrieve the great pleasure of artistic labour. I wanna start to write again. I wanna start to play music again. I wanna start to sing again. I wanna start to make from my hands again. I wanna start video again. I even wanna do what I never did, dare what I never dared. And most of all, I wanna show. Yea, I wanna show that I still create, I still live, and I still exist !